I have wanted this blog to be perfect. And because of that I have stayed away, and not done much. I have wanted to focus only on what I have created, or to share with things that others have created.
Really what I am finding is that right now I need to just use this as a voice, and just be myself and share who I am. I guess if I were trying to be anything other than authentic, there wouldn't be anything worth reading. Maybe there isn't anyway, but I am moving back to South Carolina, and this will be a great way for me to communicate what I am doing with those who care to know...
I spent 4.5 hours on the phone with an old friend tonight. It was way over due. Its so funny how I remember when she was going to prom with her loser boyfriend and I barely knew her...to her becoming someone I spent all my fun time with. We certainly had enough in common in those days, we liked to shop, go out and laugh and talk about BOYS!! We had our own language if we wanted to bolt from a dud or talk to a hottie...we really didn't have a care in the world. 9/11/2001 happened and that changed many lives including ours forever. She wanted to do something, we all wanted to. But she did. She was brave and signed up for the National Guard. I am talking about at 21 years old and 100 lbs soaking wet, never really been outside the area she grew up went and joined the National Guard. I was so proud of her. Still am.
She fell in love in boot camp.
We don't have so much in common any more, she is a mom of two beautiful babies, married to a hottie, so far from a loser!! She lives a half a world away from all that she knew and her husbands job is to keep the whole world safe at the risk of his own life.
There was a time before she left to go to boot camp that I was really, really mean to her. We lost touch, but I never stopped thinking about her. I always wondered if she would forgive me, and I am so lucky that she had it in her heart to do so. I can tell her anything. She will always be in my heart, no matter where we live. She was a TRUE friend to me, no natter what.
I am moving back to South Carolina. That has been my home base, never stopped calling it home, even in the 7 years that I haven't lived there. I have mixed emotions about it all. It is a little scary, very exciting, and completely overwhelming right now with all the packing I have a head of me. Deep down I know that there is a plan. Don't know what it is, but there is one...Life is about the journey.
